To Stop Worrying

To some it may seem a bit trivial that I have worried at all, I may be dramatic and I may be over thinking this completely but today I have peace. I have stopped worrying and I feel better. This little man growing inside of me has given me a run for my money so far, along with bed rest for 3 weeks, I have been to the hospital twice and then there is that nagging worry that there could be something wrong with my little man, not that I can't handle it if there is, we done that before and survived but having a healthy baby is such a relief!!! :) I also have of course had the fear of delivering on the road and not that it was such a terrible experience I just really would prefer to be at the hospital when this boy gets here. Just in case.
I want to share a personal experience that I had yesterday. It was so sweet to me and may mean nothing to anyone else but the lord new I needed comfort. I dozed off for a short nap yesterday in that time I had a dream or an image that came to my mind of my sweet grandmother holding a little boy, I can't tell you what that boy looked like for sure but I know that he was my boy. He was out little Ace. It was beautiful they were both happy, healthy and looked amazing. It was then that I realized once again how grateful I am for eternal families, that I know that my grandmother is loving on my little man right now, enjoying him for a few more days/weeks until he arrives and not only her but other family that has passed on before or that is also waiting their turn to come and receive a body. It was at that point I decided I need not to worry. This baby will arrive, he will be wonderful and all will be well or we will deal with anything that comes our way. It was a sweet, tearful and comforting moment for me when I decided I could wait and share him with those loved ones for a little longer and I stopped worrying. These are pictures of Tay and Grandma Ward
KJ

" Look unto me in every thought, doubt not, fear not." D&C 6:36
From the book
" The phrase " fear not " is in the form of a command in the scriptures, not a mere suggestion."

It's Never to late to.... Mourn with a Friend

I have debated on if this was the right place to start. It hit me early on as I looked through this book that I would have that opportunity if I hadn't already, it came a lot earlier than I expected and it was considerably harder than I would have thought. The book says this

" Put your arm around the sad. Visit the sick. Be the one who does something in a time of tragedy for others. Even if you are unsure that you can really help, make the effort anyway."

A few weeks ago Josh's grandmother past away, she is a wonderful woman that was always loving and kind. She treated me like family from the moment that I walked into her home for my first Hone family spaghetti dinner. All the Hone family has been nothing but loving and supportive of me from the moment that I entered their lives, I am so blessed to have married into this family. I didn't get to attend the funeral and I was devastated, I stayed home with the kids and cried and at times was angry but after Josh got home and was able to share with me the wonderful occasion that it was, we mourned together, Josh doesn't cry often, he doesn't say a lot about his feelings but I could feel his love for his family, what they mean to him and the influence that his Grandmother had on his live. It was special to see the way he mourned her death, in such a positive eternal aspect, I can not say when my Grandmother passed away that I was as graceful, I cried a lot, couldn't hardly speak at times and still I have a hard time speaking of her without having tears in my eyes, I miss her so dearly.
I was touched and inspired to be the type of person that this passage suggests. I want to move forward being a friend, just being there when people need love, support or just someone to sit next to them and listen.
Neal A Maxwell says this
" We poorly serve the cause of the lord, at times, with programmatic superficiality and by our lack of empathy for those who drift in despair."
The world is plagued with despair these day I want to be a person who has empathy and serves the way the Lord would want me to.